Jess. 21. Boston.
I've never been so bitter.
recently all i wanna do is sleep. and it sucks because usually, even when i’m miserable, i never CAN sleep. i’m up until 5 or 6 am and still am out of bed by 9 or 10 maybe 11. and now i just. i still have trouble GETTING to sleep, but now i just stay in bed… all day.
i liked it better when i got no sleep but still had the day to myself.
bringing my computer up to my room was probably the best decision i ever made.
except now i will probably not sleep more than usual
sigh why can’t I sleep I just want to sleep
Sleeping for 5 and a half hours only will probably not end up working in my favor. Maybe I’ll have to talk a nap when it gets dark before I go to work again tonight. Ugh josh (that was a keyssmash that auto corrected to ugh josh so I’m just gonna keep that there)
sometimes when i have to work in the morning i’m like “maybe i should go to bed”
and then i think “nah who needs sleep. i’ve gone to work on no sleep before”
then i go to bed at 4 am
to wake up at 8
and i wake up and want to die
and i just think
“why do i keep doing this”
I was falling asleep at my computer at like 9pm so I went to lay down and go to bed.
and suddenly widE AWAKE NOPE U WANTED TO SLEEP? 2BAD
so i come downstairs and get abck on my computer again because i’m no longer tired and now I AM FALLING ALSEEP AGAIN
MAKE UP YOUR MIND BRAIN
According to sleep cycle, the best sleep I’ve gotten in a while is the day I was in New York. Which I guess makes sense since New York is where we go to take vacations from life and I just feel so at ease there.
why am i not asleep yet.